Today has been the hardest day in many, many years. It’s been incredibly hard to concentrate. I’ve had this dull throbbing in the back of my head all day. Once in a while, I want to just hold my head and cry, but when I do, nothing happens. My chest feels tight and I’m having a hard time taking deep breaths. I feel my body temperature sporadically jump and I start to sweat, just sitting still. My stomach feels like it’s tied in a knot. I can’t stop chewing the tips of my fingers. I have no fingernails left. I find myself biting my lip to distract myself. My sinuses won’t dry up so my nose won’t stop running. My eyes are puffy and swollen and itchy. Sometimes, I just want to bang my head against my desk until I pass out.
Today, at 1:00 PM, I quit smoking.
Lets see how long my willpower holds out. If tomorrow is anything like today, I don’t know if I can take another day like this one. I’d rather bite off my tongue and swallow it and choke to death, that’s how bad this feels.
Update: Ah, I just realized that this posted after midnight, so as clarification: I quit at 1:00 PM on September 6th, not on the 7th.